Halftime — Recon Complete

Halftime — Recon Complete…

June 18, 2010

I had walked around the desert for eight, going on nine years, believing some things to be certainly true.

The intel I had been getting over those years told me the things that I had known as “truth” in my life were still truths … nothing had changed.

I suppose it was because I was, as we all are, getting closer to the clearing at the end of my path I needed  to go and either confirm or invalidate these truths that I had believed for the better part of 20 years.

I had been telling this fellow I knew out west that I was headed back east, I had been telling him that for about 2 years.

So I finally went.

And was I surprised?

For years I have believed that when a person allows his character and integrity to be compromised and will let others “use” them for their own plans and purposes, then everyone that comes upon that person has an unqualified right to “use” them. For by their own actions they have said “I can be had”.

So for years, rightly or wrongly, I had been using “those that were for them”.

My intel proved to be quite accurate.

No, I was not surprised.

Was I disappointed?

About 20 years ago, I learned the truth, that a person that I held closer to myself than my own heart, was against me.

It took about five years of God dealing with my anger at this realization for me to come to acceptance that most people took this same stance, regardless of what words they spoke to me.

Thus, for  15 years I had been living in the acceptance that most faces that I held dear … were turned against me.

No, I was not disappointed.

Was I discouraged?

I know that people of no character and standards will hide it the dark and whisper their lies.

I know that when a person is speaking truthfully, they will not try to disassociate themselves with the truth of what they are saying.

They will step into the light and “have their say”

Killers and Spoilers (those that come to steal, kill and destroy) always have and always will stay in the recesses of the darkest corner to speak their lies.

They are ashamed of their words and actions and do not want to be associated with them.

They are like “the cancer”. Full of poison.

You throw some dust in the air, find out which way the wind is blowing and step out in the middle of the street and “put it on the line”.

They will show themselves.

No, I was not discouraged.

OK, now what?

For years I have sifted through the words and statements of myself and others. Separating the true from the false.

I know that you can get too much information, which could lead to a state of confusion.

So truly a person needs only enough information to make an informed decision.

I have seen enough.

Now what.

Halftime — Recon Complete…

No matter how successful or unsuccessful the first half was.

The number one thing on any coaches’ mind should be “the bringing about of a Successful End Game”.

OK . Business as usual.

I  am a GunSlinger.

I walk alone.