Soldiers’ Reward…

A Soldiers’ Reward…Jan. 3, 2008 

“No way man..” he rants, mostly to himself. Although the bearded figure eyes him, somewhat perplexed. “There is no way that this can be heaven.” he continues on.

“Oh, really?”, Gabriel, the archangel replies to him.

“Then if that is so. Why do you have wings on your back?”, Gabriel says matter of factly.

“No, this just isn’t fair. I mean all, well most of my life I believed that when you got to heaven there were rewards for you works done on earth.”, he lamented.

“Oh yes that is so very true.”, Gabriel tells him, smiling brightly.

“Okay, then where are my rewards. I mean, why do I have to do this for all eternity?, Somehow this just doesn’t seem fair to me.”, he tell the archangel.

“Doesn’t seem fair … to you?”, Gabriel continue. “

“Okay let’s take a look at your works while you lived in the flesh”

“You were a soldier in the service of the Lord God Almighty, you were in constant contact with the vilest evils on earth, that would be the human sorts of evil.”, Gabriel goes on candidly.

“Not to mention, the kinds of things you found it necessary to do while in your fleshly role as a soldier.”

The archangel goes on, “Mind you now, your work was absolutely necessary.  It was work that needed to be done for the glory of The Father.”

“And you did it rather well, but I must add at this point. That although the work was necessary and you performed your service to The Father very well.  Uhhh, it was a rather sordid, murky almost evil kind of work. So just what did you think your reward would be?”, Gabriel asked rather confusedly.

“I really do not know, but being a guardian angel to a soldier of the Lord while he performs his service in the land of the living. Well, it just seems really, really unfair that I should have to continue doing the same thing for ever and ever and ever.

“Well, you do have the experience to be useful to this newest soldier and since, if I may remind you The Father is holy, righteous, almighty and just. I do not think that it was written that He was fair, to use your own word.”, Gabriel tells him, “therefore if you are having a problem with your heavenly reward and the fact that you do not think it is …. fair”, Gabriel tells him as he walks away into the blinding light.

“I strongly suggest that YOU GET OVER IT.”

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Jan. 18, 2008

It seems that whenever I am at my least as a man, living in shelters … walking around with backpack on looking for a foodline. Hoping to find some work so that I can at the very least know I am going to survive.

Then and only then do I seem to be right in the middle of the Lords’ will for my life.

I mean, in each moment I can truly feel His hand of guidance and love at work in every situation that takes place.

My mind and spirit is at rest and in a peaceful place.

After these number of years I can honestly say that I do not understand this God that I try to, want to serve.

But it does seem, that even from childhood, I was trained for a life of hardship.  Maybe in preparation to be of some use to Him..

There may be some thing to this belief of mine because I , in my limited view,  do not see how being persecuted, hated, mistreated can be of any good use in this valley…

And furthermore, if I had my rathers’, I would want it to not be this way. To continually endure these things…

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Act 9:13  Then Ananias answered, Lord, I have heard by many of this man, how much evil he hath done to thy saints at Jerusalem:

Act 9:14  And here he hath authority from the chief priests to bind all that call on thy name.

Act 9:15  But the Lord said unto him, Go thy way: for he is a chosen vessel unto me, to bear my name before the Gentiles, and  kings, and the children of Israel:

Act 9:16  For I will shew him how great things he must suffer for my name’s sake.